Thursday, November 24, 2011


The skies are still in loving blue
Those birds on the trees are still chirping
Those trees are still swaying gently
The kids are laughing happily
The wind breeze is still brushing your cheek
The foods are still lavishly laid on our table
Our love ones are still around us
Our heart beats unbeatable beautiful rhythm
Allah's blessing and mercy never stop on us

So STOP whining dear little heart o' mine. Pull a smile and go on this path. No matter how winding it may seems, no matter how many mountains we have to climb.. rest assure dear little heart o' mine, that Allah is with us all the way. InshaAllah we'll get there, sooner or latter. Pause if you have to but never lose hope and quit.

NOTE: I'm just a soul whose trying to be the best that I can be. InshaAllah. Please pray for me.

Monday, November 14, 2011

LIFE - as i knew it


Last two years was hectic, till today. Since arwah papa passed away, nothing seems to be the same again. If only I can script it all here... everything that went and goes on. But don't get me wrong. Life is still beautiful nevertheless, His blessing and mercy keep on pouring on us. Alhamdulillah. Trials and obstacles I presumed is what make us alive. We just have to find a way to live with it.

Its already towards the end of 2011. I'm going to be 37 next year. Goshhh! time do flies, maybe it flies at supersonic speed these days except for those time that I spent missing my other half. Or, maybe time on its own is alive. A twilight. *what the heck am I babbling about?*

NOw and then, this melancholic song from 'the cats' broadway keep coming back to my head.

Memories, all alone in the moonlight.
I can smile at the old days,
life was beautiful then.
I remember the time I knew what happiness was.
Let the memory live again.

note: its not easy to be me. BUT who is?

Wednesday, November 09, 2011


Saying 'see u later' and letting go is never easy. Its heartbreaking. Always. Never fail. And this is the sacrifice I'm willing to take. Love indeed can do many splendid things.


Thursday, November 03, 2011


cutie pie Aufa Rahmat. *mak long love u to bits*

Ata 3rd wedding reception. yessss.... tiga kali ok bersanding. This one back in rembau. 3 pasang pengantin. MERIAH!

my dearest Amir Fateh, few weeks after he was born. Photo taken at 19 Scott Rd. I miss that tiny apartment that we rent. Small but cozy at the same time.

Salam. wohohohoooooo... its been years since this blog is updated. Somehow I just can't log in and finally dear hubby managed to do something about it. Miss this blog, miss all the memories it kept well through the years.

Now its already towards the end of 2011. Time flies. Memories remain. A lot happened within this 2 years. We are back in Melaka. No more sheffield and the bone biting coldness of winter. Oh, I do miss summer though, and carboot the most. :(

Fateh was born in October 17th 2009, just over 2 months after arwah Papa passed away. It was difficult time, full of trials and agony. But his birth bring along sunshine to what was a gloomy winter days that year. Alhamdulillah.

Ata is married last year in October, now the family expand with the arrival of cutie little Aufa Rahmat on the second day of Eid 2011. Apin had graduated last weekend, but still pursuing her degree. Dear hubby is now working in Miri, away from the shore, away from home, far away from me. Mama had just had an operation on her ankle right after Eid,till unable to walk. The kids (i.e. Shafiyyah and Ajmal) settle very well in their new school. Though there are times when they're begging me to go back to Netherthorpe School, but they do adapt to the new 'school environment' in Malaysia. Of course it is miles different from how schools are in UK, but this is home nevertheless. We just have to cope up. InshaAllah.

Kakak is a big girl now, she eats tremendously a lot for a 10 year old. hahaha... Quite fond to asam pedas and nasik. Ajmal is a big boy too, back teeth is back in place, though front teeth is somehow going in the drain. :D Very cool boy indeed, doesn't care much about other people expactations out of him, school wise especially. Hilang buku teks pun relax je, homework almost next to nil (according to him). Exam time, dapat B's pun ok je, dapat A's pun not really that excited. hahaha... but really into reading this days (text book excluded though).
Fateh is a super active 2 years old toddler. Always have something in his mind, ready to strike at any time. Ibu kadang2 adalah agak furious, but all that just make him cuter and cuddlier.

Wow, thats a hefty lot of information in one entry.

owhh, my anak2 angkat... all of them are now busy with their life, working all around Malaysia and singapore even to China. But once in a while, they'll get together and put a surprise for Ibu. Yes, I still received flowers bouquet for my birthday. And whenever possible, we still celebrate birthdays together. Not even once did they failed to melt my heart.

I guess that's enough for today. Piles of work are waiting for me. Better get my hands on them. Due date is pushing.

I'm back, and InshaAllah will be back more frequently after this. Till then, have a good day everyone. May Allah bless us all with His mercy. ameen.