Thursday, December 20, 2007

MELANTUN (tak kena gaya)...

pernah dengar perkataan "BODOH MELANTUN-LANTUN"?


Itu adalah sifat bodoh yg tidak statik.. dia bersifat dinamik dan pecutannya bertambah dengan masa. Dan saya rasa sifat 'bodoh melantun tak reti duduk setempat' ni la yg selalu membuatkan org melayu sering terkebelakang.


oohh.. saya ada sbb kenapa saya emo sgt ni, its just the protective side of me kicking. Nnt bila keadaan sesuai saya cerita. Bukan apa, kalau saya cerita skrg, saya tau ada ramai org akan sependapat dgn saya maka akan membuatkan saya berlebihan pula emosionalnya. Bila saya terlebih emo ditambah pula dgn sifat protective saya ni, mungkin saya akan buat sesuatu yg boleh menyebabkan si bodoh melantun2 tak tentu hala. Bila melantun tak tentu hala, saya takut w= fs =0. nnt lebih teruk jadinya.


buat masa ni saya tak mau layan dulu emo saya. lebih baik the protective side of me starts doin' some thinking. Mungkin its not fair to ask this from all of you, tp boleh ke tolong doakan apa yg saya nak cuba lakukan ini berjaya. Dan juga, apa yg saya nak buat ni adalah utk kebaikan. Sungguh, percayalah.


nota: saya sangat gembira kalau dapat jadi knight of shining armour esp utk org2 yg saya sayang. Saya rasa hidup saya lebih bermakna... saya tau, mereka tau saya sayang mereka.

Sunday, December 16, 2007

dan PINDAH dan RANDAH...


suka lagu ni jugak.



Its just a point to ponder..




Have any of you ever make a vital decision, which your life depended on it but end up regretting?



Have you ever think that what you'd done is the best for you but soon realized it might not be the best path to choose?



Have you ever wish you can turn back time so that you can handle things differently?



Have you ever?



nota: If only I can shout and yell it to the world...
nota2: keja pindah randah ni memenatkan... dan packing memacking boleh buat pinggang anda rasa sakit, sungguh. Harap kamu kasihan.
nota3: dan lebih memeritkan bila hati juga penat dan lelah. Harap kamu mengerti.

Thursday, December 13, 2007

AKU, SAYA DAN KESAH.

I don't really understand why I'm superduper sensitive lately. I get irritated over smallest thing, I get annoyed over slightest flaw.. maybe I'm just tired, or maybe I'm actually exhausted.
Or, maybe I've opened my heart to too many things that I've made it vulnerable.



nota:
1.aku kadang2 ada juga rasa utk tidak 'cakna'. Tapi, kalau aku lakukan itu, maka aku bukan lagi aku. So, in order to be me, being hurt to some extend is the risk I would take.

2.eye bag saya sudah menjadi begitu obvious sekali, mungkin sebab keletihan sangat sejak kebelakangan ni. rindu sungguh nak buat treatment dekat salon mustika ratu syuhadah di bukit katil itu. Best tau.. mula2 masuk sauna, pastu urut satu badan, pastu lulur lah, mangir lah.. pastu berendam mandi rempah. Dekat sini sejuk beku, jangankan berendam mandi rempah, nak mandi pun pikir banyak kali. hahahahahaha....

3.biasanya saya akan sangat 'cengir' kalau tgh PMS, tp cengir dan supersentitive adalah 2 perkara yg tak sama jadi tentu penyebabnya pun tak serupa. Lagipun cengir saya tu datang secara berkitar sahaja dan biasanya sangat mudah dijangka.

4.sejak disini,memasak sudah jadi satu passion,something that I would be happy to do and something that I do when I'm happy. Cuma kebelakangan ni, saya sudah jarang memasak seperti dulu. Mungkin sebab saya sibuk dan terlalu penat, mungkin...Bukan saya dah jadi tak suka memasak, saya suka.. tinggal lagi....

5.makin lama, saya makin jelas yg 'engineering is just not me' tp sudah terlajak sampai ambik Phd. Tak agak2 nak terlajak kan... saya lebih sukakan sesuatu yg bersifat humanitarian secara langsung. Nnt saya cuba fikirkan equation yg boleh menghubungkannya. huuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu...
Btw, saya ada cita2 yg pada dasarnya tidak memerlukan saya terjebak dengan apa2 yg berkaitan dgn engineering ni, at least not this far. But again, its what I'm doing right now that might lead me to what I want. Allah knows best!


6.ooo... bibik saya baru sampai dari Malaysia petang tadi. ya, bibik yg kadang2 cengir lagi dari saya bila dia PMS. hahahahahahahaha... ampun... nama dia apin.

Friday, December 07, 2007

TIBA2 AWAN ITU PERGI...




cik kuna sayang puteri pucuk kelompang sorang...

dulu kita suka sangat lagu ni kan.. sekarang aku tepek lagu ni kat sini sebab aku rindu awak sangat2. Aku rindu nak macam dulu2, dok golek2 ngan awak.. walaupun kita macam kucing siam ngan kucing baka kampung (hahahahahahaha....), gaduh tiap2 hari, tapi kita sentiasa sangat happy sebab apapun kita tetap bespren in the world.




anakanda2 ibu yg sedang meniti zaman remaja sekalian,

lagu ini pun ditujukan utk korang jugak. lihatlah disekeliling, kasih sayang itu ada dimana2, tinggal lagi nak terima atau tidak saja. ibu sudah tua... sudah tak faham konflik semasa jiwa remaja. But one thing I knew for sure, these and those memories of being young, is what you all will be cherished later. So my love, create a nice one will you?





nota: ayah saya selalu pesan.." yg baik2 saja... yg baik2 saja." huhuhuuhu.. rindu mak kite.. rindu ayah kite... bila la nak boleh balik msia niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii????????????

Sunday, December 02, 2007

HARI ITU DAN HARI INI.. TIDAK SERUPA

notakepala: ini kesah kawan kepada kawan kepada kawan saya. Dia tak ada blog sendiri maka saya dgn baik hati tumpangkan blog saya dan this friend of friend of friend of mine quite sure that somebody dear to them read this blog. ( well.. I can't help it that i'm pretty femes kan...keskeskes..) Tolonglah percaya..




Things change, people change, always for a reason.. perhaps something better though it can as well be unintentionally something worse. And being human, being selfish maybe, sometimes we want things or people to remain the same, to be just like things or they were especially when it seems so perfect the way it is.



Things change, people change, always for a reason.. tonite you were family, brothers, sisters, even friends... the next morning you can be a total stranger. Sometimes it happen gradually, sometimes it came as a blow you didn't see its coming. The thing is, you hurt even more when you're not prepared.




Things change, people change, always for a reason.. but one day, when you looked back of the old days, it'll make you smile knowing that part of your life is full of love and somewhere deep down, you knew that you'll missed it. Some people say if you love somebody too much, you need to let them go, I personally don't agree with this since I usually fight for what I want, for people I love and I would never let go, not without putting a brave fight.. after all this is what this special entry is all about.




Things change, people change, always for a reason.. but if one day things and people are about to change back to where it or they were.. we are here, waiting with our arms full stretched.. whateva it is our love will always remain the same because the day it was given to you, we gave it unconditionally...



notakaki: I'm never good with words.. at least not verbally. I never knew how to put words in the artistic kind of ways coz with me its always so straightforward. But that doesn't mean I'm not aware or doesn't care. I do aware, I do care in my own naive way...