Thursday, May 24, 2012

DESPERATE

Well.. where do I start? Lets begin with something nice. Last few months the government announced about the salary increment for those in govern. sector. That's good, considering I'm a minah kerja gomen makan gaji tiap2 bulan. So this month's salary we got all the backdated increment. Well, that's super good. The not so good news is, we are about to hire a full time maid. Now that's rm7-8k out into the air.
Why? because I'm desperately in need of one right now.

You see, I'm the mum and the dad of the house most of the time since dear hubby is working in the east part of Malaysia. I already have my hands full with those 3 kids, juggling between work and trying to run errands as smoothly as possible. Long gone were the days when I was so fussy about the tidiness and cleanliness of the house. These days, almost 80 % of everything is tolerated.

Now, I'm still alone here with the kids and preggy too. Yes, with not so mild morning sickness that struck almost the whole day despite of the name. Seriously, there are times when I feel that all these are too much to bear. I'm exhausted, I'm tired and sometimes I'm so weak, I need to shamelessly ask my colleagues to send me home.

I know, you'll say: Be patience. That's exactly what I'm doing and keep on trying to do. Believe me. I'm not complaining. I just want to let my heart out. I don't know if it makes me feel better, I hope so. I need to escape to somewhere. But where can I go? My best hope is to wait for my dear hubby to come back home soon. Really soon I hope and pray,for the kids will be having a two weeks school holiday. And me on my own, its going to be chaos.

*sigh*

1 comment:

~ yus ~ said...

Preggy ya Nita. Congrats....

hmmm....yus bukan di situasi Nita, but rasaya dapat memahami. Cik abang takde, kerja, anak2, kerja rumah everything Nita yg urus. Nita mmg supermom....

Kalau pada yus, lebih elok kalau cik abang sentiasa di sisi, tp tulah semua datang dari Allah, kita merancang, Dia yang tentukan. Moga Nita terus kuat!