Its almost half past 10 and everybody else is fast asleep.
There are lots of things running thru my clouded mind right now. Wish I could just whizz off and be at home. No, where i am at right now is not a home, perhaps a house but definitely not home.
I'm heavily pregnant and all excited about the new bundle of joy, but yet still... why do I feel like crying at the same time?
More than often nowadays, I keep on thinking about this path that I've chosen. Is it really for me? am I doing the right thing? is this what i want to do for many.. many years to come? Dreadfully, the answer is always a big NO. But then again, on the other hand... lets just finish what we've started. I'm so 'sort-of-can-see-my-self' do some other things,things that i love... but it has to wait. InshaAllah the time will come when I don't have to pretend to be smart anymore and can just be plain me instead. Maybe all these top of the range kind of thinking is for you, but obviously not for me. Seriously, I'm tired but God's willing, I will put out whatever the last ounces left of strength in me and fight.
Can somebody at least try to understand?
kalau kau menjadi aku, aku yakin kau mengerti...
3 comments:
salam...
ohhh....touching sungguh n3 mu..huhu....kak nieta..insyaAllah mohon Allah mudahkan urusanmu...ibu mengandung ni bnyk keberkatannya...nak2 plk masa ni kalau kak nieta banyakkan berdoa...baca Quran..Allah PASTI akan permudahkan...insyaAllah...
i'm not in the same world(student) like u but i'll try to understand...
ALLAH BLESS!!TAKE GOOD CARE DEAR!
Al Imran - 3:200
O ye who believe! Persevere in patience and constancy; vie in such perseverance; strengthen each other; and fear Allah; that ye may prosper.
Al Araf - 7:128
Said Moses to his people: "Pray for help from Allah, and (wait) in patience and constancy: for the earth is Allah's, to give as a heritage to such of His servants as He pleaseth; and the end is (best) for the righteous.
Innamal 'usri yusra - Janji Allah...with hardship comes ease...just need to have faith in Allah and do your best...all for His sake alone...Allah knows every single strungle we go through, have faith in Him...take care..
akak, saya ada interesting book, saya baca buku ni masa down. buku dlm bm, akak nak baca?biasalah kita belajar. saya pernah rasa macam yang akak rasa.
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